Friday, January 21, 2011

I've been a HORRIBLE blogger recently....

Let me start by saying that life has been CRAZY recently full of ups and downs. The holidays were, let me say, CRAZY, and quite the whirlwind.

Jim and I completed our first 10K on Thanksgiving morning, the Turkey Trot. Let me start by saying that it was FREEZING outside, and it rained/sleeted the entire time. Jim's cousin, Jackie, joined us for the race and totally rocked here. Jim finished in like 52 minutes, Jackie finished in 62 minutes and I finished in 64 minutes after a long break to puke three time from overheating but here are a few pictures:



finished/crossing the finish line:

Christmas was amazing. We went to Christmas Eve Service together as a family, and then Jim and I put Madison to bed and stayed up drinking wine and wrapping her presents. I am hoping this will be a fun tradition to continue for us. Christmas day we spent the moring as a family and had breakfast and then my family came to visit. We had an awesome day. I cooked almsot the whole meal by myself. I decided next year I am making a lasgna ahead of time so I can spend time with my family.

opening presents

with PopPop

with Nonna

The day after Christmas we celebrated with Jim's family and had a really nice time.
opening more presents:

annual christmas shot and some other fun ones

Jim and I had a really nice NYE, my mom and dad took Madison for the night. We went to a party with friends, had a DD and slept in until 10am. I can't even tell you that last time I did that. We celebrated my birthday on the 10th, went the farm show and had a great time.

Madison is growing so quickly everyday. She is starting to string 2-3 words together, is hit or miss with sleeping, but is just a joy to be around everyday, that is of course if she's napped. LOL.

Until next time,


Thursday, January 20, 2011

Thankful on a Thursday

For my amazing husband who is my rock, my best friend, my soulmate

For my beautiful, smart and growing baby girl, Madison

For my wonderful and supportive family and friends.....

For a line of work where there will always be people who need help....

That my peanut child just ate an entire banana, this is a big victory.....

That there is still snow on the ground...

That Mickey mouse clubhouse entertains Madison long enough to drink my coffee....

Friday, December 3, 2010

I had my first panic attack today....

I worked on maternal child health at the hospital today and got a call to go visit a mom down in Labor and Delivery. I didn't think twice and headed right now. I walked into her room and had my first panic attack.... this was the room that I delivered Madison in....

While for most this would bring back a flood of amazing memories and in the end it does for me too, but before those amazing memories, i brings back the scariness that was Madison's delivery. Warning, this could get graphic, don't say I didn't warn you.

I had been brought into the hosptial to be induced on 5/22 at 9am. I received a gel on my cervix, was monitored for an hour or two and sent home and was told to come back at 2pm for another dose of the gel. We went over to my sister-in-laws house, because she lives only 10 minutes from the hospital, compared to our 35 minute drive. We killed some time, ate some lunch and made our way back to the hospital. On the way to the hospital I began cramping and having pain in my back, but nothing too horrible. When the midwife came in to check my progress, she happily annouced that I was 3cm dialated and then my water broke as she was checking my progress. That was that, I was instantly admitted. We made our happy phone calls to friends and family and settled into our room, Labor and Deliver room 12.

Hours went by, my contractions became painful and then eventually slowed. I was started on pitocin. I was given a dose of Stadol for the pain through my IV and the only thing it did was make me feel drunk. My best friend, Vicki, had stopped by for support and to visit and I couldn't even hold a conversation with her. I woke up and she was gone and I couldn't figure out why, lol, because I had felt hungover from the pain meds. I requested an epidural at that time, I was 5cm. The anesthesiologist came in to administer my epidural, however I was so swollen, that even the spaces between my vertebrae were swollen. Jim says it was horrible watching the anesthesiologist attempt to get the epidural in place. Eventually it was put into place and the medicine quickly kicked in, however the medicine cause me to shake uncontrollably. After visiting with family (and sending them home for the night), Jim and I decided to try and get some rest. However I woke up a few hours later in pain, my epidural was wearing off. I labored like that for hours.

Finally at 5am I was ready to push. Jim called family and friends to let them know our bundle of joy would be arriving soon. However, I wasn't a good "pusher". I pushed for 2 1/2 hours. It was just Jim, myself and our L&D nurse in the room. Finally at 7:30am there was a shift change for my doctor and nurse. I was sad at first until Jim and I realized that instead of a doctor, we would have a midwife, Emily (Jim's valedictorian actually) and a new nurse. Having a midwife in the room was like having a fresh start, she was really encouraging me. I was ready to give up, I was exhausted. I rested a bit and got started pushing again. Finally I started making progress and received an episiotomy (which hurt like a bitch since my epidural was no longer working). I was able to push out Madison's head. For those of you who are not parents should know that once the head is delivered, the rest of the body is supposed to just slide out. That wasn't the case for Madison. I delivered her head and pushed, and pushed and pushed. She never cried, she wouldn't come out. I thought she was dead.

Next thing Jim and I know, our calm midwife is calling for my practice's oncall doctor STAT, then when he didn't show fast enough, she screamed for any available doctor. The next thing I knew, my bed was lowered back flat, I had 10-20 different nurses in the room (labor and deliver, pediatrics, and NICU). It took my midwife, two different doctors, and several nurses jumping and pushing on my stomach for Madison to be delivered. She was finally out, but still wasn't crying. She was immediately whisked away and placed on an oxygen mask. I honestly thought she was dead.

It took a really long time for Jim and I to calm down. My delivery looked like something out of a scene of the show E.R. My wonderful L&D nurse ran laps back and forth betwen the NICU and back to me to help convince us that she was going to be okay (she was amazing). Madison needed to observed in the NICU for a while. It turns out that Madison's shoulder got stuck behind my tailbone. It wouldn't have mattered how hard or long I pushed, she was never coming out on her own. By the way, Madison was born at 8:47am, so over 3 1/2 hours of pushing.

holding her for the first time in the NICU

daddy holding Madison for the first time in the NICU

I haven't typed this out in quite some time, I'm amazed how many little details I still vividly remember. 18 months later, I have an amazing, happy and healthy toddler... it still took me a few minutes to collect myself after leaving that room today. Its amazing what an affect childbirth can do to you.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

What is Madison up to these days?

Madison has been very busy recently, meeting new friends and traveling to see family.

Madison loves to climb and hide, she loves playing hide and seek.

Madison has become quite the picky eater, throwing most of her food to the floor and throwing temper tantrums. On the rare occasion that she eats, she loves to use a fork and spoon, but not baby utensils, she loves to use the big/adult silverware.

Madison runs really fast and has started trying to jump. She also loves to dance, shaking her booty and clapping her hands. She also loves to shrug her shoulders and holding her hands up in the air as if to say " I don't know".

Madison makes a great shocked/surprised face, even bringing her hands to her face. lol

Madison has also been quite the momma's girl, crying every time I leave the room.

Madison has approximately 25 words and can make a good amount of sounds (horse, cow, duck, monkey, train, and even "ho ho ho" for Santa Claus)

Madison makes a great "monster voice" and immitates her daddy alot. It's hilarious.

Madison is still working between taking two naps a day and dropping down to just one.

Madison went trick or treating this year and has enjoyed some little bites of candy recently. Madison had her first lollipop a few days ago too.

Madison will be 18 months in a few weeks, I can't believe how fast the time as gone. It seems like just yesterday she came into this world and made all of our lives better.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Thankful Thursday...

Today I am thankful for (in no particular order):

Madison's pediatrician who calls to check on her 2-3 days after seeing her, every.single.time after an appointment, i love that they care so much about her.

The amazing nurses who are taking care of my mommom during her hospitalization. It means the world to me.

My job who allowed me to increase my hours to help my family out financially...

For Elmo who is entertaining my toddler who has been screaming for her binky all morning..

My amazing husband who has been so patient with me and my exhaustion recently...

Going home to visit my parents this weekend, and hopefully figuring out a quick trip to NJ to visit my mommom in the hospital